Monday, September 26, 2011

Dancing Men in Bodysuits

I love the way the dance keeps becoming something unexpected. You think you know what is going to happen and then whoosh it changes direction. What is the novelesque equivalent?

 Thanks to OK-Go for wearing slightly risque outfits and being willing:




I am deeply into a revision of my first manuscript. I picked it up again after an 8 month break. The distance was necessary. I think it is a good revision. But the book started from big ideas and aspirations. It is a first book. I have worked at it for too long. I learned much about writing novels and characters and sustaining plots and subplots within its 50k words. I have axed characters, chapters, flashbacks, and bus scenes - at least its weight in words. After all the book's sacrifice, all its willingness to bend to my whims and the whims of each crit partner, can I salvage its inner beauty, can I find an essence of truth that needs to be read?

I'm not sure.

I have to be willing to fail at this. I have to be willing to make a fool of myself. Be willing to be a laughingstock. Be willing to be dumb. Be willing to go slow. I may also have to be willing to give it all up.

Willingness is hard for me. I'm giving it a try.

(thanks to J for the video link many long months ago - finally ready to use it :))

11 comments:

  1. Hello Tina, I enjoyed the video. It was quite amazing. And all the best with your book Tina, you can do it.

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  2. I feel like when you get to the point where you are comfortable saying, maybe not. Maybe I will let this go, that's when you can be the most objective, and bring your work to where it needs to go, or to truly move on to the next thing. Have I given up on Star? No. But I am in the place where I can. And if I do go back to it, I have the perspective for it. Let's keep moving forward. Write on, write upward.

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  3. All is not lost at all!!! You know, Tina, I have been listening to that song while working on my draft of Sleep! (actually, the Key's and Krates remix of that song, but still) <3 It's a good song for us right now :)

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  4. Try your darnedest to get that book just right. And know if you get to the point that it's okay to leave it sit another 8 months if needed.

    OK Go have the best videos. I think Anita and I should wear those bodysuits for our next dance video.

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  5. oceangirl, so good to see you! Sorry I have been such a bad blog friend. I will stop by and see what you are up to. It has been a long long time!

    Heather - That is what I hope. The perspective thing has been truly good, I will grant you that. I have hopes for Star! I think we may be on the same page with these old novels. ONWARD AND UPWARD. Even my posture gets better when I type those words. :)

    Marisa - So glad we are song sisters for this draft. Without you out there working so hard along side me, I think I would have given up long ago.

    Kelly! I like that bodysuit idea! What do you think Anita will think???

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  6. Even I am in the revisit old novels mode! Onward and upward, my friend!

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  7. I love that Roy is getting some attention. Yay for Roy! ONWARD AND UPWARD! How does that work on your posture? You probably have very good posture.

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  8. I lost about 15 pounds with the dengue fever, but body suit? Hmmm...will have to think on it. May have to ask myself, What would Pink do? Hah!

    I think, Tina, that you're in a great place. You have so much love in your life, it makes it easier to say you could give the writing up. Buuuut, it doesn't have to be all or nothing, YAY! So write when you want and love pieces, hate others. You are NOT making a fool of yourself!

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  9. Thanks, Anita, for chiming in about the body suit. I don't know what P!nk would do, do you? As far as the all or nothing, I really appreciate you chiming in about that too! I really want to let go of some things. But you are right. I can do that and write when I want and keep parts and let others go. And for sure there is a lot of love. :)

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  10. Oh man...beautifully said. You put yourself out there on the journey and see what happens..:-)

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  11. Thanks, Paul! I am trying. Fear seems so integral to the writing process and everyday is a different journey. So today I am tired! And I need to water the fruit trees before the ground hard freezes! But not tonight. Sigh!

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